Friday, October 30, 2009

dates with tim.

14th november at the the sebel albert park convention room - madman cosplay grandfinals! (i wont be cosplaying but come see me anyways :D) opens at ten!

April 17th and 18th - SUPANOVA! Exhibition Hall and the Boulevard Hocker, Melbourne showground 10am to 6pm. (whether we cbf or not, but most likely i'll be cosplaying as nyuu/lucy from elfen lied and tim will be going as kateo)

Friday 20th to Sunday 22nd August - manifest at melbourne showgrounds (and the same cosplay as above unless we change our minds)

October 17 to 18th - armageddon expo Melbourne Exhibition Centre (COSPLAY: TBA!)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

yuck

at bad people having blogs.

pumped for anime nights with tim! :D
and supanova, armageddon and manifest with tim
and city trips to see pat :)
he's sending me the worst photo comments and comments, ever.
haha ilyzzzz him.
metal fo'lyz \m/


^yuck.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

the letter t.

this trenchant, trepidation for tribulation
this transculent, trangressional for a testing trial
my traitorius, treasonable transcenf for tranquilty
my tantalising treason of the truth.
a thoughtless token of toilsome, toothsome thraldom tact.
tenture's termination of temprate of tantamount and terristal tempest.

BLEH!

they don't shine like us.
i watch season 1 of the young ones again yesterday :D

cawfee

i saw that bird again today flying over my paddock!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

the only thing i like about my body is the top half of my torso.
all dancers have good top half of torso's, well most anyway.

i'm doing like, seventeen hours of dance a week, on top of six hours of school
-.-

reverse

there was just a massive white bird flying in my backyard/land
it was gorgeous. how it was so, free.

yesterday

was pretty good, went shopping with ma to try to find a look i saw on a model and i found her skirt for something like $30 which i thought was pretty good.
i just need the top and the long tights ;)
i found something similar to the top but it was white
so i was like eeehh, no.
then met up with mitch and had lunch, then we went to pick up casey from the train station and had a nice little brother sister bonding moment.
basically, being the scum we were i tried to find half smoked smokes for mitch on the tracks.
it was great.
we are so scum.
i love it.
but then mitch got scared i would die cause of 'ghost trains' and wouldn't let me go down there anymore.
freak.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

i haz no heart.


tin man walks alone.

i'd rather some coffee, thanks.

died today


no year twelves :(
went to a little shindig at alex's then left to go too the movies, saw máo's last dancer, saw bad people, ate chinese and now i'm home.
going to alex's early tommorow too see the bad things they're going to do.
lukas's shirt was the funniest/the worst.
had shit like white supremacy on it and swastika, and i hate you cunt go kill yourself. have a bad day. i loved it.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

media + music + teenagers = violence?

"There has been much publicity about unprovoked, mindless acts of aggression. The perpetrators of such violence do not fit neatly into certain categories or age-groups, but range right across the whole of society. How can that be? There must be certain common denominators.

Clearly, no one factor can be held responsible, although a number of obvious ones abound, eg:-

Increasing drug, solvent and alcohol abuse -

Public apathy when faced with anti-social behaviour

Lack of respect for authority and/or common decency

A tendency for people not be to accept responsibility for their actions

etc.

Amongst the many theories which have been advanced so far, disquiet has been voiced in respect of some computer/video games which seem to glamourise brutal acts. Many experts have dismissed such influences as minimal; however, during the course of my work (using music to teach), I believe I have uncovered a powerful conditioning process, further consolidated by subliminal reminders, which should not be ignored."

this is what im studying in english
my school sometime teaches the best stuff :)
so basically we watched a movie about how media influences violence.
i got music for my 'media.'
my teacher believes that music is pro violence.
but how can you classify violence?
in the above statement it says that, 'Increasing drug, solvent and alcohol abuse' is a responsible factor.
what im trying to express, is quite the opposite.
so i'm doing it on a show that was on, inside: straight edge.
now, im not straight edge or anything like that im simply just expressing a point against how drug and alchoal is NOT pro violence towards a certain type of music, punk rock/hardcore.
this is basically just getting all my thoughts out onto paper.
im going to show you the statistics on three different types of music, from three different generations, and then hardcore. rock music (early 70's), indie/peaceful music (early 60's), rap music (90's onwards) and punkrock/hardcore (late 80's onwards)

rap music.
March 3, 2003 -- Teens who spend more time watching the sex and violence depicted in the "reel" life of "gangsta" rap music videos are more likely to practice these behaviors in real life, suggests one of the first studies to specifically explore how rap videos influence emotional and physical health.

After studying 522 african american girls between the ages of 14 and 18 from non-urban, lower socioeconomic neighborhoods, researchers found that compared to those who never or rarely watched these videos, the girls who viewed these gangsta videos for at least 14 hours per week were far more likely to practice numerous destructive behaviors. Over the course of the one-year study, they were:

* Three times more likely to hit a teacher
* Over 2.5 times more likely to get arrested
* Twice as likely to have multiple sexual partners
* 1.5 times more likely to get a sexually transmitted disease, use drugs, or drink alcohol.

"What is particularly alarming about our findings is that we didn't find an association with just violence or one or two risky behaviors," says researcher Ralph J. DiClemente, PhD, of Emory University's Rollins School of Public Health. "We found an association with a string of these behaviors."

His study, published in the March issue of the American Journal of Public Health, only involved black girls living in Birmingham, Ala. -- all of whom were already sexually active. While the researchers surveyed viewing habits for various types of rap videos, gangsta rap was by far the most popular among the girls practicing these destructive behaviors.


rock music.
A concert held by the group "Guns N' Roses" (July 2, 1991 in St Louis, Missouri) ended when the enraged mob of 2500 youths staged a riot, resulting in 60 of their numbers being injured. The journal Rolling Stone informed that the participants in this concert, "developed into a furious uncontrollable mob, hurling bottles, destroying seats, ripping apart bushes, breaking and setting fire to instruments... This riot continued for over an hour before a squad of special police arrived to restore order. (Rolling Stone, Aug. 22, 1975 p 15). This type of violence is far from being an isolated incident.

Sometimes, this type of frantic behavior at rock concerts leads to killings. In a town called Jefferson-Township, (New Jersey), a youth named Thomas Sullivan stabbed his mother, Betty-Ann, to death in the basement of their house. Setting fire to the divan with the aim of destroying the house and killing his father and younger brother, he ran outside and committed suicide by slashing his wrists. All week long before this carnage, Thomas had been humming a rock song about blood and killing your mother. Police later established that Thomas was a talented student, outstanding sportsman and had belonged to the Scouts. He began to dabble in "hard metal" rock music and, before committing his crime, he confided to his friends that Satan appeared to him and ordered the killing of his family.

Different forms of violence are on the increase in rock music. For example in a song titled "I Kill Children" by rock group Dead Kennedy we hear "I kill children, I love to see them die. I kill children to make their mothers cry. I crush them under my car and I love to hear them scream. I feed them poison candy and spoil their Halloween. I kill children, I bang their heads in doors. I kill children, I can hardly wait for yours." In the album "Hell Awaits" the band Slayer has the lyrics: "No apparent motive. Just kill and kill again. Survive my brutal slashing. I'll hunt you till the end."

Iron Maiden's mascot is "Eddy" a dead man who kills with great delight. According to Satanist and brutal murderer Richard Ramirez (the "Night Stalker"), it was AC/ DC's song "Night Prowler" that became part of his motivation to murder 30 people. He said the song gave him "inspiration. "Night Prowler" contains the stanza, "No one's gonna warn you, no one's gonna yell 'attack!' and you can't feel the steel until it's hanging out your back, I'm your night prowler."

One study revealed that of the 700 most popular songs of "heavy metal," 50% speak of killings, 35% of satanism and 7% about suicide. Sheila Davis, professor of lyric writing at New York University, is convinced that "better give serious attention to the content of pop songs and to evaluate not only what lyrics are saying to society but, more important, what they may be doing to it" (USA Today, October 11, 1985, p. 10).

indie/peaceful music
Sixties Music and How it Reflected the Changing Times Chris Montaigne Professor Shao Rhetoric II The 1960’s in the United States was a decade marred by social unrest, civil rights injustice, and violence both home and abroad. These were some of the factors that lead to a cultural revolution. The revolution attempted to diverge the fabric of American society. Teenagers were living dangerously and breaking away from the ideals that their parents held. In the process they created their own society (Burns 1990). They were young and had the nerve to believe that they could change the world. Their leaders had lofty goals as well. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. had dreams of a truly equal America. John F. Kennedy dreamed of a young vigorous nation that would put a man on the moon. The youth wanted to live in a state of love, peace, and freedom (Gitlin 1987). Through the stormy decade of the Nineteen Sixties it seemed that popular music was at the eye of every storm (Burns 1990). During this time musicians reacted to what they saw, often the youth of the Sixties were living out lyrics and popular songs of the day (Anderson 1969). For every headline there was a song by artists such as Bob Dylan, James Brown, Aretha Franklin, The Jefferson Airplane, and The Beatles. Some remember the decade’s music as a representation of the moral decline and the representation of the inappropriate ideal of the youth (Szatmary 1996). The youth movement became the counterculture and they became hippies. The hippies preached mysticism, honesty, joy, and nonviolence (Time 7 July 1967, 4-5). Music played an intricate part in the hippie lifestyle. The music reflected the sentiment of the youth. It became an outlet for teenagers to express themselves and voice their concerns about society (Burns 1990). Folk music was the musical choice of the youth in the early Sixties. Bob Dylan and Joan Baez were the most popular folk singers of the day. In the early sixties the union of the civil rights movements and folk music on campuses lead to the rise of folk songs called “message songs” (Szatmary 1996). Songs like “Blowin in the wind” by Bob Dylan began opening up the minds of the youth to the social problems facing America such as the civil rights movement. The Rascals “People Everywhere Just want to be Free”, Joan Baez’s “We shall overcome”, and Dylan’s “The times they are a changin’” were message songs that helped start the firestorm of politically charged music that fueled a revolution and a generation (Baggelar, Milton 1976). Songs of the decade reached for the poetic, symbolic, and the mystical to better pinpoint the mood of the times. With the assassination of President John F. Kennedy folk music movement began to fraction. The disillusionment and shock caused by the assassination had an especially strong effect on the youth (Anderson 1996). Drug abuse became a trademark by the youth the hippie movement (Steinbeck 1971). The use of drugs was glorified in many ways by bands like The Jefferson Airplane, The Grateful Dead, Jimi Hendrix, and Pink Floyd. This music became known as “acid rock” (Szatmary 1996). The music fashioned the ideas of peace and love along with it a dark trend. San Francisco was bursting with rock activity and it became the center for the hippie culture. The heart of the hippie activity was the Haight-Ashbury district (Burns 1990). Thousands of middle class, college educated youths flocked to San Francisco to demonstrate their counter cultural beliefs. These summers began to be known as “Summers of love” (Szatmary 1996). They lived on the streets, did drugs and sat in groups strumming their guitars (Frike 1989). They wore flowers in their hair leading to the nickname “flower children” and phrase “flower power”. Songs like White Rabbit by the Jefferson Airplane told the stories of their mind-altering experiences; “one pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small, and the ones that mother gives don’t do anything at all…remember what the doorknob said, feed your head”. The Beatles wrote the song “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds” as a tribute to psychedelic effects of LSD (Hertsgard 1995). The Civil Rights movement may have been the most emotionally charged movement of the Sixties (Anderson1969). The music reflected this feeling. Soul music and Motown became the driving music by the black artist who fought for equality. Songs by Aretha Franklin, Curtis Mayfield and James Brown expressed the sentiments of the times (Szatmary 1996)

we see here that the 60 influenced LESS violence but MORE drug abuse.
so what about music that is less about hate and more about pro life and peace but STILL expressed in agressive form? and has come from a morale of not drinking, smoking, doing drugs OR having promiscous sex?

A Brief History of Straight Edge
Straight-edge refers to a philosophy that's most basic tenets promote a drug free lifestyle. It developed as an offshoot of the punk rock/hardcore scenes of the early 1980's when the term itself is believed to have been coined by Ian Mackaye, in the self titled song, while he was the singer of the seminal hardcore band, Minor Threat. Mackaye eschewed the nihilistic tendencies of punk rock, promoting instead the simple (almost simplistic) philosophy of "don't drink/ don't smoke/ don't fuck."

In the 12 years since the demise of Minor Threat, these simple beliefs have transformed the minds of scores of teens worldwide. Increasingly disenchanted with societal ills, young men and women adopt the straight-edge doctrine as a blueprint to better first themselves, and then the world in which they live. While the original definition of straight-edge only included the rejection of mind altering substances and promiscuous sex, modern interpretations include a vegetarian (or vegan) diet and an increasing involvement and awareness of environmental and political issues.

As noted, straight-edge grew out of the punk rock/hardcore scene and so music plays an important role. The Teen Idles, an early 80's Washington, DC hardcore band, and something of a precursor to Minor Threat, can arguably be called the first straight-edge band. Since that time there have been hundreds if not thousands of bands who've so labeled themselves. Early bands included Minor Threat, SSD and Uniform Choice. In the mid to late 80's, straight-edge hardcore reached a zenith, especially in the greater Metropolitan area of New York City. This atmosphere led to the creation of Gorilla Biscuits, Bold, Wide Awake and arguably the most prolific band of the era, Youth of Today. While the bands of this period did much to popularize straight-edge, they also contributed to its closeminded and antagonistic aspects. The attitude between straight-edge and the rest of the world often took on adversarial tones during this time, largely becoming "The positive youth crew versus people who drink, smoke and/or do drugs." Many people dislike straight-edge and its adherents because of such intolerant views.

Straight-edge today, while nothing like the "halcyon" days "back in '88," still offers a viable and positive lifestyle. Bands such as Strife, Mouthpiece, Earth Crisis and Snapcase, continue to proliferate and bear the standard. While its detractors often claim that straight-edge(rs) are no more than suburbanite, cliquish, fashion victims, few can argue that the philosophy is still valid. The drug-free lifestyle has left its positive impact on more than one wayward youth. Perhaps the ideals and ideas are more pertinent today than ever as the focus begins to reach beyond affecting merely oneself to altering and improving one's society and environment.

straight edge(rs) are commonly seen with an X as, during the 80's if you were underage at a club you couldn't drink being given the X on your hand.

so, how exactly if this punk/hardcore music CAME from a straight edge culture could it be all about violence? does this prove your point AGAINST agressive music always having an effect of drug abuse?

Monday, October 19, 2009

armageddon expo 09

had a lovely weekend woke up at like seven on saturday and picked up mitch from brad's and drove to melbourne, dropped him in the city and went too armageddon!
it was so, fucking. amazing. i cosplayed at hinata and so many people were like HINATA I LOVE YOU CAN I HAVE A PHOTO WITH YOU?!! i was like.. sure :D lots of people put alot of time and effort into their cosplay, so props.
met laura bailey, the voice of trunks and tohru honda, she was lovely and so hilarious :)

i also met sean schemmel, most commonly known for his work as goku. he was so talkative he was like do they zay dragon ball zed here? like, seriously? i was like 0.0 i love you.

i also met ty lee from avatar and she's also wanda? from hey arnold. ahah.

i also met some guy from ben 10 and another guy from full metal alchemist!! ;o
and i met some of the volturi from twilight (new moon)
they were sorta stuck up though, didnt really talk long.
oh and i met dante! who is in avatar, io cant remember his name but ty lee's brother. he also does the voice for american dragon. he was like. are you dissing me cause im black?



so it was awesome, I BOUGHT SO MUCH!

i then met up with wilmz and we got slurpee's and cigars and drank vodka.
twas good then on sunday i went to break even at the evelyn which was pretty good. met some lovely people ;) and yeah had some mad chats on the way home.
xo

Sunday, October 11, 2009

barnum

me & allira
races much? :|

this is charlie's & emma's pas de deux at the children's fair today, t'was amazing as always!

hinata hyuga.





so i have finished my hinata cosplay and im getting alot of really positive things things being said about it which is lovely. im really looking forward to next saturday when i perform! should be lots of fun! :)
i'll upload a few pictures of the photoshoot i had on saturday in my cosplay
only this is i wasnt wearing my forehead protector that hinata wears around her neck D: but yeah.

i think im going to scrap lolita and go as yuuki from vampire knight, it's a really good anime but yeah i have a year so i have heaps of time :)
skins 3 marathon tommorow, gotta remind myself since season four is coming out so soon.
i love how everyone is into it now it's a really good thing cause that means they'll be plenty more seasons, so yeah everyone hit up skins. ive been watching it for like, almost five years now. aha.

school.



i love me a joe.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

so today was good

we are having a picnic at school tommorow, ima' bring a rug :)
the weather is getting suuuper good, love it
going to thailand over christmas which should be okay, not particularly looking forward to it though.
ensemble stars next week for the end of year concert
going to be hectic :|
have a performance at wodonga children's fair this saturday for musical theatre, eh i have no life 0.0
im going to melbourne next weekend should be awesome for the armageddon expo but i haven't got my wig yet but should get it this weekend ><

so many people you wouldnt expect are into anime. so wierd.
BRAIDEE OTTO! so yeah i just like to sit around in my cosplay, its super comfy
started watching vampire knight it's so fucking good! considering making a yuki cosplay cause yeah its awesome, instead of lolita. not sure yet.

xo
ps. do i look like andy? ;)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

planning our escape from this world.

listening to from a second story window, chopping on ice
it's freezing.

she sat up, pulled the covers close to her chest and blushed.
he looked around, threw his pants on and laughed.
"you think this is all a fucking show!"
"yeah babe, it's all a fucking show. just let them do it"
she got up and put her top on.
"you should know me better then that. i am better then that."
he laughed again, she's in denial. he thought to himself.
"you really haven't thought this all out have you?"
he left the door open.

Monday, October 5, 2009

:(


feeling blue and tired, didnt particuarly enjoy ballet tonight.
sike last night was amazing.
the coming home bit, not so much
me and joe basically just bitched about everyone for the whole night
joe left the light on and i couldnt be bothered getting up to close my door
at like three, i was like fuck! and got up. -.-
wish i could take the last 24 hours back
i fuckedddd up, bad

Saturday, October 3, 2009

koneko.

intresting what you find when you clean you room out
old photographs, writing books, stories i never finished, songs and lyrics, cd's i thought i lost, toys, old food (ew) and letters.
it was good going through my old writings, and poems and things.
i used to have a bit of a talent for it, sort of lost in tranlation i think.
i love lolcats!

they so cuuutee n.n
me and koneko ahaha ^____^

Friday, October 2, 2009

D:

pretty shit mood, i've been really sick lately cause of the season's changing, happens every year, some worst then others. last year and the year before that were the worst i was sick for like a month -.-
it's coming pretty early this year, mind you.
gr so angry, can't find my sike your mind ticket annnywhere. i have joe's too so it's like ;o
waiting for max to come online.. dop dop dooo
went out for dinner tonight and it was pretty good but i think they poisoned me
i have finished my whole cosplay skit yeyeyayaaay.
oh max is online, ima go.

xxo

Thursday, October 1, 2009

cosplay done.





well im in a massive squealy mood right now *fan girls faint*
i got my forehead protector today for my hinata cosplay, so thats means everythings done except for my wig but im getting that tommorow. so excited it's like, in 15 days :D






do i match her? :)

oh my.

so i will be visiting the wonderful city of tokyo next year, during their winter season (being my family's attraction to snow *rolls eyes*)

and as i am over the moon it just struck to me today. oh my fucking god.
japan = anime
anime = cosplay



THERES GOING TO BE COSPLAY SHOPS EVERYWHERE!
Animate
http://www.animate.co.jp/animate/map/east/ikebukuro/ikebukuro.html
http://www.animate.co.jp/animate/map/east/shibuya/shibuya.html
http://www.animate.co.jp/animate/map/east/akihabara/akihabara.html
http://www.animate.co.jp/animate/map/east/kinshicho/kinshicho.html
Gamers
http://www.broccoli.co.jp/gamers/honten2/main.html
http://www.broccoli.co.jp/gamers/honten3/main.html
http://www.broccoli.co.jp/gamers/ikebukuro/main.html
http://www.broccoli.co.jp/gamers/shinjuku/main.html

K-Books
http://www.k-books.co.jp/tenpo/anime/anime.html
http://www.k-books.co.jp/tenpo/akihabara/akiba.html

Toranoana
http://www.toranoana.jp/shop/shop_akiba.html

Cospa
http://www.cospa.com/shop/shibuya.html
http://www.cospa.com/shop/akiba.html
http://www.cospa.com/shop/marui.html

Cosplay(maid) cafe
http://www.curemaid.jp
http://www.mailish.jp
http://www.cos-cha.com



that many, infact.
and harajuku girls and it's fucking tokyo, okay?
im going to spend so much moohlah $$$
also cosplay cafe's
if you dont know what a cosplay cafe is here's a short explanation
basically kawaii japanese girls in tiny maid outfits serving you lunch.
it's basically my dream to make one in australia idc if it's a tiny subculture here
it will be gorgeous.
im so excited!
:D


video of a maid cafe if you dont squeal, run around a yell kawaii you have serious problems.
oh god it's so cuutttttttttteeeeeeee

i noticed, neither can i.

hmm, went through my old myspace playlist today
my music taste changed hasn't changed in two years, ahah

been having really good late night conversatios with max, thankgod someone who actually makes some sort of sense
i havent been able to sleep at all lately, ive been trying to cut down on my caffeine but it's really hard i made a teapot full of coffee today, it was great n.n


thankgod for the go channel, just shoot me and the nanny repeats.